I didn't do much out of the ordinary this week. I went through the motions of work and home life. Corey and I went on a really nice starbucks and Walmart date (Classy huh? I love it) and cranked up my new Ellie Goulding album that I purchased. I really wish I had found my love for her tunes sooner. She has such an amazing voice. I joke with Corey that if I had her voice I would never talk. Just sing.
Today I got together with Nicole and we gave our pups a bath and a chance to play a bit before getting ready for our respective family dinners.
As per usual, I hate waaay too much at our first Thanksgiving dinner and felt like I had to be rolled out of the room. Ah well. That happens when you come face to face with mounds of delicious food.
So all this I have done before so this week is my cheat week where I snag something I did extra in the previous weeks to make up for my laziness. I had saved up a few things because this was bound to happen. This one has a some bitterness attached to it but whatever, I don't have much to draw from. People make screwed up assumptions and jump off the high-dive into crazy sometimes.
crushing anellophobia
I still have a little hesitation when putting a ring on a finger and it's not terrible loose but I don't have that chest crushing panic that came along with it anymore. I'm marking that as a success =)
Anxiety is awful and I'm trying my damnest to stop my little fears from surfacing lately. Corey has been a rock of support and is one of the few that can bring me down from the full blown 'I'm going to die' attacks I get every now and then. Those fucking suck.
Maybe this chat should be in a separate blog. Get it all out on test just for me to read over. See how far I've come and how far I can get. Thanks to my favorite blonde lady for some stellar inspiration.
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